“She failed her hearing test”.

These are words parents definitely don’t want to hear when they’ve just had a baby; especially when hearing loss “runs” in the family. We were assured that “it’s common”. We heard things like “it’s probably just fluid build up” and “we will take it again next week and I’m sure she will be fine”!

Declaring Healing

The week leading up to the next test was filled with prayer. We knew what our God could do. We were not moved; we knew everything would be ok. We arrived at the hospital and the nurse got us set up in a small, private room for the test. The nurse placed the device in her left ear. We waited. Fail. We tried again. Fail. We tried a third time. Fail.

The nurse then said, “we’ll try one more time before we test her right ear”.

My husband (who has hearing loss in both ears) got to a place of desperation. He walked out into the waiting room, crying out for God to heal our daughter. Declaring her healing and promising the Lord that he would be SO bold about sharing His goodness, he continued to pray in the waiting room since he couldn’t be in the room for the final test.The nurse settled in to start again. We wait.

PASS!

The flood of relief that permeated my soul is indescribable. I called my husband in and we rejoiced. Then the right ear was tested.

PASS! The Lord is good!

For years, this was our testimony. We have always shared what God has done. Believe and you will receive!

Faith When Healing Doesn't Come

Fast forward 4 years, and I begin to notice my daughter saying “what, Mommy? What did you say?”.

Worry stirs in me, but I push it away and pray. I tell my husband.

“No,” he says. She was healed.

So, we pray some more. Yes, she was healed. We declare; we rejoice.

“Mommy I can’t hear the TV!”

We would say to her, “Rae, look! A plane! Can you hear that?”

“No mommy.”

I felt the push to get her tested. School would be starting soon and we felt that it was time. When we took her, she failed both tests in both ears. We prayed harder; we believed. They tested again.

Fail.

It began to affect her everyday life, and at that point we needed to consider hearing aides. We cried out a little differently.

”Why, God? You healed her. Why is this happening?!”

I heard a quiet voice. “You needed to know her first. Trust what I am doing”.

Let me just say, it’s easy to trust when the healing comes, but it takes a great stirring of faith when it doesn’t. Regardless, I did know her. She was resilient, strong, determined, and she was not deterred. She was fearless. She will change the world!

I struggled for quite some time, and there are days my mind still wanders and questions, but God reminds me again and again.

“You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my Mother’s womb.”

Psalm 139:13

When the Lord said this, I KNOW He made my daughter just as she is supposed to be. What the world can see as a “disability” would be the most beautiful GIFT He has given her because He KNOWS how to use it. Our minds cannot comprehend, but God can and He is the one who brings the beauty out of every circumstance.

When the Lord said that, I KNOW He made my daughter just as she was supposed to be. What I see as a “disability” could be the most beautiful gift He has given her because He KNOWS how to use it.

“For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope”. Jeremiah 29:11

Reading this verse, I feel peace in knowing that no matter what, He is at the forefront. He is in control. There is a reason He chose this path for her, even when I don’t see it. And while I know He could heal her...I trust when He says “no” or “not yet”.

“Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.” Proverbs 19:21

Trust In What God is Doing

So parents - know this. Your children were created just how they were supposed to be. Don’t feel like your prayers aren’t strong enough or filled with enough faith if they are not getting answered.

Don’t feel like your child is “less than” if they have a diagnosis or a “disability”. The Lord is using them just as they are! And you know what? The Lord is using my daughter to change me; to reach parts of my heart that needed fixing. When He sees fit, the healing will come, whether on Earth or in Heaven.

So, parents: love, guide, and pray for your children. You’re their best warrior. And most importantly: trust. Trust what God is doing. We have no idea what God can do, and I can assure you, His plans for them are beyond what we could ever think of ourselves.
P.S. I felt it important to add, my daughter is a dancer. She loves to dance. Her dance teacher has told me many times that she hears the music with her soul; that it is noticeable. So, see?

How my small mind would lead me to believe that she could only “hear” if her ears are working properly. Just another example of how God's plans are so much greater. For Her solo this year, she is dancing to the acoustic version of Micah Tyler’s “Different”. For the chorus she is dancing and signing every word in sign language. Oh how I am so grateful that God decided to make her different. So grateful.

Author: Nicole Murray a member of Legacy Church