TESTIMONY: LETICIA ROMNEY
At the end of 2019 I finally broke.
Prior to that point many people knew me as somebody who was always going going going. Always doing way too many things. Always moving, never stopping. For years.
I was praised for it mostly, but at the end of 2019 I realized that it was a cover-up. A mask. A distraction.
As a survivor of child abuse and neglect, I discovered that I had wounds that were still raw. I still had flashbacks from something that happened decades ago. When that much time has passed and the memories of the trauma haunt you, you wonder if it will ever go away.
But as a believer in Christ, I am a believer in a true Healer; a true Deliverer.
So I stopped doing too much. I stopped burying my trauma with things to do and places to be. When my unhealed places came to the surface, I had NEVER found myself in a lower place than that point. My marriage was put under extreme pressure.
Facing my trauma left me in a depression that would leave me staring at the walls for hours. I was lashing out at my husband.
In that time, the enemy came after me HARD.
But God chased me down HARDER.
I found people to talk to who understood. I prayed. I read a lot of Joyce Meyer. I got active. I went to church, even when I could barely bring myself to. And after service was done, I dragged myself to the altar to fall on my knees and ugly-sob at the feet of Jesus.
It was messy. But I trusted in the Lord as my Healer. And I trusted that He would guide me every step of the way.
And that’s where I found Isaiah 61. “Good News for the Oppressed”.
I declared it over my life. I said that 2020 would be my “Isaiah 61 Year”. I captioned my pictures #Isaiah61year so I could track my healing journey. I just kept asking God to show/tell me what to do next because I had never truly faced my healing process before, so I didn’t really know how.
I trusted that God would come through for each and every step that I needed to take; and he SO did.
My daughter's due date is September 30, 2020.
Day 1 of my pregnancy was December 25, 2019.
December 25th; the very same day that God’s plan for salvation came into fruition here on the Earth.
Isaiah 61:2 says that “the time of the Lord’s favor has come.” And He has delivered.
Verse 3 says He will give those who mourn in Israel a crown of beauty for ashes, joyous blessing instead of mourning, and festive praise instead of despair. He has placed my crown of beauty, my joyous blessing, within my womb.
Verse 8 says that the Lord loves justice and hates robbery and wrongdoing. It says he will faithfully reward His people for their suffering. Praise be to God!
In verse 10 the prophet Isaiah says that the Lord has clothed him with the clothing of salvation and draped him in a robe of righteousness. I am beyond grateful that the Lord has taken my old clothes – my old identity – and given me a new one.
The reality of my daughter means that I am no longer the girl who came from the generational curse of abuse, pain, and unhealed wounds. I am instead the mother of a daughter with a new legacy.
God’s love, grace, and justness has made a new way. It’s so amazing. For the first time as far back as my memories go I am living without the heavy weight of trauma.
They say you see Jesus in the most unlikely places sometimes.
My daughter, I see Him in your existence.
You are new life.
You are God’s plan.
You are the new way.
You represent victory.
God has already used your existence even as you continue to grow from within me. I can feel that he has great plans for you Aria Jane. The best is yet to come.
Author: Leticia Romney a member of Legacy Church
I felt God calling me for a couple of years. Although I didn't purposely ignore the feelings, I put them on the back burner. I felt unworthy and spiritually broken and was battling with anxiety and depression…